Thank you to all who joined with me in prayer, the Lord heard and He answered, and now she's in our arms! Safe and sound and adorable as EVER!!
Friday, November 11, 2011
Monday, October 31, 2011
40 week bellySo, I'm a goal-oriented person, and when a goal I had in mind has come and gone with no results, I'm left to wonder what to do next. I have been so focused on getting to October 30th that now that it has passed and I'm left still pregnant and unsure, coping with the next week or so seems like an impossible task.
I'm frustrated that my body isn't responding yet to the fact that it's time to be in labor, and I'm feeling like God is trying to teach me a lesson. I'm no go at relinquishing control and so I am sincerely hoping that this is His gentle way of reminding me who is in charge but that He has full intentions of creating a happy ending out of what has now become a stressful time for us.
Admittedly, after meeting with the Doctor today, I'm feeling about as hopeless and helpless about this delivery as if I had just received yet another negative pregnancy test. I feel like he was preparing me for the fact that something isn't right and something will go wrong and it isn't going to end on a happy note like it did with my first labor and delivery. Now, whether I'm reading into his words or not, I guess who really knows, but what I heard was not what I wanted to hear and I'm left feeling sad. I have chosen to go ahead and start my maternity leave, in hopes that I can spend the next few days focusing on what really matters and more on the situation at hand as we look expectantly toward the end of our time as a family of three and become a family of four.
I guess I will have to go on faith, which I don't have a great deal of most days, that everything is going to turn out fine. I will stop walking, and eating spicy foods, and making Tony massage my ankles and feet and give up all of the measures that are fun to joke about but not really practical for sending me into labor...and I will just have to become diligent about praying specifically for what I want for my baby girl. Other than that, I'm at a loss...we are both feeling at a complete loss and are desperate for some good news...
I pray that someway, somehow, despite what modern medicine says is possible, that my body begins to respond sometime in the next few days and goes into active labor on its own. I pray that I would not have to have a c-section and that I would not be faced with the possibility of McKenna not being born alive and healthy and thriving. I also pray that my labor would be short and easy inasmuch as it was with Noah. I give you full control because it's pretty apparent I'm not able to do anything to influence the situation any differently, but you can, and I just have to have faith that you will. I thank you that you have her perfect arrival date and time in mind and I thank you in advance for that promise to be carried through. We just want to hold her and know she is whole and here safe in our arms. You have given me a successful, full-term pregnancy, and some mommies I know that were due right around when I was did not end up with healthy babies to hold and snuggle and love on, and so I thank you for protecting our little one thusfar. I feel like we are not out of the woods yet and there are still risks to come between now and delivery time, and I ask that Your hand be over those possibilities and that they would be taken away.
Please guide the Dr's heart and mind that I see this Thursday so that some better answers and more encouraging news might be present at the appointment that puts me back in a better frame of mind. Please continue to watch over our Baby Girl, McKenna Dawn, we want her here safe and sound so badly.
Thursday, October 27, 2011
Sunday, October 9, 2011
Monday, September 19, 2011
Sunday, August 28, 2011
Sunday, August 21, 2011
Yay, more Marching Bands! I love the drums!
I see Ronald McDonald coming
Daddy will save me from the big, scary balloons!
Okay, I'm covering my eyes, but I'm still peaking out of curiousity...
Ah, these shades make everything look better, including me! What a Stud!
Here is my belly when I was pregnant with Noah at 30 weeks:
And here is my belly with McKenna at 30 weeks:
10 weeks to go!
Sunday, August 7, 2011
Mommy is feeling great, McKenna is moving like a wild woman, and we are having so much fun getting her room ready a little at a time. It's slowly coming together!
What a blessed summer we have had so far as a family of three...and I find myself longing a little more each day to finally have the opportunity to hold my baby girl in my arms. So excited to be a family of four! Even Noah has started to give my belly lots of big brother kisses, pats, and hugs. And he even played Doctor the other day and checked out her heartbeat with a toy stethescope..."Buboom, Buboom, Buboom" he said...sounds perfect to me!
God has truly blessed us and we are so grateful!
Thursday, July 21, 2011
Saturday, June 18, 2011
Noah went with us to that ultrasound along with the grandmas, all of us hoping to find out the big news...girl or boy?!?! He was so well-behaved, he was looking up at the monitor on the wall with his little mouth hanging open as he sat on Daddy's lap and said, "I see baby." "I see heartbeat...buboom, buboom, buboom." "Baby so cute!" Luckily, once he was bored of that scene, Grandma Wolfe has brought along grapes and Scooby snacks and Noah was content to munch and sporadically count my toes while I was up on the table. But he did really well and we were so glad he was able to be a part of that experience and see images of his little sibling for the first time.
Everything looked great on the ultrasound, and with a LOT of pushing and prodding at my stomach, most of which made me more nervous that my bladder was going to empty itself on the exam table more than disturbing the little one growing inside of me...baby finally uncrossed it's legs...and there was no denying it...IT'S A GIRL!!!!! McKenna Dawn Wolfe is on her way and growing perfectly! We feel so blessed to complete our family with a beautiful baby girl. And we could not be more excited for her big brother who is already one amazing kid. Both of our angels from Heaven! Praise be to God, we are eternally grateful!
The Dr. met with me afterward for my regular tummy check and all was well there as well. It turns out my placenta is a little too close to my cervix so I will get another ultrasound at 3o weeks to ensure everything has moved up at least 1 cm. If not, the Dr. said there could be talk of a c-section but I'm nowhere close to actually having placenta previa and they aren't labeling it as such. He said there's about a 99.99% chance everything will move up into place so no need to worry. And considering how very quietly and smoothly this pregnancy has gone compared to Noah's, despite some early insomnia and lots and lots of nausea for 15 weeks, I have every reason to believe everything is going to be just fine! I go back again at 24 weeks for a tummy check, 28 weeks for my glucose test, and 30 weeks for the next ultrasound.
I have been really bad about taking belly pics and journaling this pregnancy, but I finally did get a baby book filled in for Miss McKenna and I have some belly pics as well. I will have to post those next time because our scanner has decided to stop working once again..no fun! I know every Mommy of more than one child has told me the second pregnancy is different, and I echo that truth whole-heartedly. Although I have to say, in some ways it is an amazing experience. Because I have much less time to read the week-by-week pregnancy books and am just trusting the process God put into motion. I have every faith McKenna is going to be a beautiful, healthy baby girl and this time is able to be devoted to Mr. Noahman and soaking up these last months of just one kiddo to snuggle, so we can have twice the snuggles come this fall! Watching our baby boy grow up into such a great kid just makes us so much more excited to hold McKenna and watch her grow into her own as well. Little miracles!
On another note, and I hesitate to document this experience only because I have terribly mixed emotions about it...it is still a part of our family journey and it's something to look back on from time to time. Through no real pressure or desire of any of ours, it has worked out circumstancially that we have given Spencer to a new home. We picked up Spencer at 7 lbs and all curly-tailed and puppy breath adorable in the Spring of 2006, when he was just 8 weeks old. He has been a part of our family for the past 5 years and we have shared many family experiences with him and have come to know his personality undeniably well. He truly became just the dog after Noah was born, but he and Noah interacted great together and we have lots of video and pictures of those experiences that we will definitely cherish. It turned out my Aunt was looking for a dog and had had two really bad experiences trying to find a good fit for her home. She and Spencer have always been buddies and the timing worked out perfectly for both of us, as we were all headed out of town for a week. So we took Spencer to my Aunt's house last Saturday along with all of his belongings and boy, they have created quite the bond already. I am really sad that I know he is getting more attention than he had with us and is probably, in some ways, much better suited for a kid-free, and judging by his personality, other doggy-free environment with 100% one-on-one attention. I guess the maternal part of me is sad I didn't try harder to give that to him, but I'm also excited for him and my Aunt to really love each other and enjoy each other's company. And we will have another dog someday...way down the road when our kids are older, but we just felt this was best for everyone involved. If he hadn't gone to family we would have never considered giving him up to anyone else, and this way, we know where he is and can still visit him from time to time. So, Spencer James, Pencies, Puggly, Doodle, Noodle, Doodle James...we love you, Noodle-head and we really miss you like crazy and hope we did the best thing for you.
We also had the opportunity to visit my sister, brother-in-law and niece for a week while Tony was away on a mission trip with the youth group. Our days were filled with walks, shopping, a visit to a local rescue zoo with the CUTEST baby goat and baby bear ever, art projects, lots of messy meals, the "Ah!" game between the two kiddos...let's just say it got loud...and lots of snuggles, hugs and great memories!
I had a glimpse of our not-so-distant future with two carseats in the backseat of my car!